claratan.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006
4:48 PM

i nv had an entry of such bt im tired of pretending life hs been a joy, i will nt b ashamed of wad im going thru cos i noe i will be strong and im gona get dre..

saw mirdat today n of cos it felt gd to see him once again.

it has almost been a yr since he left.
all those dreadful tots of having to wake up every single day knowing dat i cnt hv him near nv changed.
i wish i cud wake up in the yr 2007 to find him beside me.
im so emotionally n mentally drained.
i gota hide dos tears behind empty smiles every single day.
i gota act like im strong wen im dying inside.
i gota stop myself frm saying tings i wana say bcos i cnt fite dos tears.
i wana feel myself, i wana noe dat im still the same.
i want him to come home n make me feel complete.

we will b together again n ill b patiently waiting for dat day to come.
i love u, n i will for a very long time.
nothing n no1 cn change dat fact, this i promise.

he says 'clamirism1617 till time ends'.
i noe one day we'll get dre.