claratan.

Saturday, April 22, 2006
9:24 PM

so i went to mirdats place this afternoon
so im bck frm my grannys place on a sat night
so im going to watch oc soon

the system was so screwed up today.the visit started 20mins earlier.so u imagine?no1 was dre.n wen ppl came at the 'right time'.we had 10mins left.F*cking pathetic and so f*cking screwed.also, people's mood werent just the best.

its so troubling having to see him moody.n wads worst is he cnt tell mi wads bothering him.all i cud say was cheerup cos he dosen wana talk abt wads bothering him.n all he cud do was say im sorry for being moody with that frown.we cnt even TALK.n wen he ask hw m i.every single time id say 'ok' fullstop.WHY.its nt even like a single bit of hw we used to TALK wen he was ard.when every single sec's filled with either one of us speaking which would last for hours.i feel so tired.i swear, its been a yr n i still cnt get used to the fact.

'talk also cnt talk.see also cnt see.talk n see also must b shared'
i cnt take it.

for one bloody yr this is hw its like.we cnt talk PROPER.
i cn only feel like he's talking in letters and same for me.
and wen he's so moody it affects me n its irritating becos i dont know wtf is going on.

i am so bothered.