claratan.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
5:01 PM

i was in total shock, please.
my brain stopped processing.
all that was going through was '1st august 1st august 1st august.'
1st august was all.

no, mirdat's not returning on the 1st august.
its something i dread every year.
not the expected but,
my piano exam.

OH MY GOD.
didnt we request for september?!
i was going with my practise in a pathetically slow pace cause i thought oh..sept's not yet close, id be almost perfect by then.
then during lesson just now,
' your piano exam's on the 1st of august :) '
WIPE THAT AWFUL SMILE PLEASE.
i am not NOT at all prepared
to be exact,ive got 125 scales to MEMORISE.
don't anyone know ive got SHORT TERM.
and fingers that goes the slowest?
and what?2more weeks left?!

i was going to break down.
i was going to flood the whole floor!!!!!
so yea, im going to stay home all day long pretending like i love piano.
i so don't need this.

claratan's going to make it to diploma.
then degree.
then im gone, okay.
no more piano exams.

i should have thrown my piano books years ago just like my brother did.